Thursday, December 31, 2009

Happy New Years!!

I can't believe that we are still awake and waiting for the ball to drop. I am beyond exhasted so excuse any typos in this post. 2009 has been a rough year for our family, we had financial problems (who didn't?), jobs come and go and a Gestational Diabetes scare amongst other things. Looking back on this year, we were also blessed in so many ways, we were able to modify our mortgage allowing us to keep our home, we went on a great trip to see old friends in Utah and we were blessed with a beautiful baby boy, Mitchell. Yes, 2009 has brought quite a few wonderful things our way, the most wonderful being Mitchell. He is such a sweet little guy and has the happiest disposition. It has been difficult at times knowing that he has Down's but all of the wonderful people I have found through my blog have made it less difficult to accept. I really appriciate all of your honest posts about your children with Down's Syndrome, through your blogs I will know what to expect, what to be fighting for and I know I will gain a knowledge that I didn't have prior to Mitchell's birth. I want to thank you all so much and let you know that I am proud to be part of this new family!
God Bless,

Monday, December 28, 2009

What 3 months can show you

It has been 3 months since Mitchell was born and I have learned so much since he was born. I have not only learned about Down's Syndrome, I've learned things I didn't know about myself.
I have learned that I am stronger than I ever imagined,
I have learned what unconditional love feels like,
I have learned to praise even the smallest accomplishments,
I have learned not to look to far down the road, I'll only drive myself crazy,
I have learned to be happy with today and whatever today has to offer,
I have learned that I am surrounded by wonderful people in a community that is warm and embracing,
I have learned that Mitchell will accomplish great things and will have many abilities,
I have learned that Down's Syndrome isn't something to be sad about but rather something to celebrate!

Tuesday, December 22, 2009

Merry Christmas

It is hard to believe that in two nights Santa will make his appearance! My kids are so excited and can't wait to see what Santa brings. We have so much planned in the upcoming days, dinner with family, Christmas Eve church services, baking for Santa, play dates with friends and last minute preparations, the upcoming days are sure to be busy. This Christmas has been the best I've had in a long time. I've tried to space out all of my baking, card sending, wrapping, sending of gifts over the entire month instead of waiting until the week before Christmas to cram it all in. This strategy has worked well in keeping the holiday chaos to a minimum. I feel like I have had time to savor the holidays this year and that is a true blessing.
Merry Christmas,
I was holding Mitchell as he slept tonight and he looked so sweet that I had to take a picture to share. Enjoy!

Wednesday, December 16, 2009

Tough day

I thought that I was alright with Mitchell's Down's diagnosis until today. I sat down with a dear friend whom I had not seen since having Mitchell and we began to chat. She asked me how I was doing and I told her I was fine, we continued to chat and I said something (I can't remember exactly what) and she replied "It sounds like you are having a hard time accepting it." I started to cry and I realized that I am having a hard time accepting it. I am fine as long as I don't have to discuss it. I am still hoping to wake up and discover a baby free of Down's, I am still trying to make sense of all of this. I have found myself feeling lost and alone, Mike and I don't discuss it, we've moved on or so I thought. Tonight I am finding myself shaking fists at the sky and wondering why me? Why am I the chosen one? I love him and I know that I can do this and do a darn good job at it but I didn't sign up for this! I am thinking some counseling might help me sort out my feelings and help me move forward, it might be good for my marriage as well. I know that with time this will all get easier and I will reach a point of acceptance and I look forward to getting there.

Saturday, December 12, 2009

Christmas pictures

Tonight we went to our church's Christmas program. Since we took the time to dress the kiddos up in their Christmas best and trudge out in the snow I decided I might as well document the occasion. ENJOY!

Friday, December 11, 2009

Remaining positive

This week has been so cold. The temperature hasn't gotten above freezing for around a 5 days. We have had our water pipes to our washing machine burst and our washing machine has been frozen since then. It has been rough watching the laundry pile up and knowing there is really nothing I can do until the weather changes. It has also been hard to keep the house warm as our central heat isn't efficient and our wood burning stove heats only the front rooms of our home.
Even though this has been a rough week I have been blessed to have great friends to visit with. Jaquelle was kind enough to let me do 3 loads of laundry at her house and help me with a fleece tie blanket, Sherry was wonderful to visit with as she offered much needed adult conversation and Sanna was a Godsend as she came to get Maddi for school this morning. So to all of my wonderful friends, Thank You
We also had Mitchell's two month checkup with the pediatrician on Monday and he is doing well. He is smiling, cooing, reaching for objects and trying to roll. He is steadily making his way up the growth chart and has gained 3 pounds since birth. He is now breastfeeding exclusively which I think is awesome! I am so proud of him and I love watching him meet his milestones. I hope that this continues as he grows.